February 2011
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I want a relationship where :
strawberrytelle:
when people look at us , they be like ” i want to be in a relationship now ”.
we go shopping together.
we make fun of each other , but come out stronger at the end.
we’re each others best friends.
we take cute pictures.
we match our outfit on some days.
we can never stay mad at each other for so long.
we show off each other to everyone.
at the end of the day we’re happy...
January 2011
3 posts
There are times when...
you’re tired at about midnight but for some reason you say to your self you’ll stay up a few minutes longer and those minutes become hours and sleep starts becoming a notion and throughout the hours you become exceedingly indifferent to that notion.
The week before we got out of class, my roomates and I were drinking. Diana, one of the people I live with reminded me it was one of our friend’s birthday and she proposed we invite him to drink with us. Unfortunately he couldn’t because he had a final to study for. Instead I invited one of my good friend, whom I trust very much.
When he got to my place, it surprised me to see him...
December 2010
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It’s been five years now, and it’s not until now that it hit me that my grandpa is gone. I remember when we used to stay at the hospital for the holidays. It’s not until now that I miss him and that I can fully understand what a big role he played in my life. If this is how I feel, I can’t imagine how much my parents went and are going through. They were his parents after...
November 2010
6 posts
I went to a party Saturday night. It was so much fun! For the first time in a long time I enjoyed going out and dancing. The party ended like at 2:30 and then some friends and I went to get some food before we headed to the after party. It was all going fine until one of the girls started talking about the guys that were currently pledging the fraternity. It was no surprise to me when I found out...
Now more than ever I feel insecure, unsafe and alone. I have this knot in my stomach. For the first time in my life I am genuinely scared. I feel as vulnerable and helpless as a little kid. Having this experience, now more than ever, makes me feel alone, though I know it’s not true, I hate the fact that I can’t ask someone to spend the night with me just because I’m scared. I...
Life, Unexpected
I can’t seem to go to sleep now. The only difference is that today I know why. It was around 4 am when I heard my roomate pounding on my door. I told her to come in and she was exasperated. She then asked me if I was ok. I was confused as to why she was asking me this. It wasn’t until she told me she had just gotten back from her studio and when she tried opening the door there were...
Sleepless Nights
There’s something about this time of year that makes me go to sleep later. I keep going to sleep around 4 am everyday. I know it’s a bad thing, but the thing is that there is very little I can do about it. To be honest, days and nights feel the same. I’m sure there’s some other reason why I can’t seem to fall asleep, I just can’t seem to figure out why.
October 2010
43 posts
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“Yeah, the lemonaid just ain’t the same since you been missin’, boo.”
I spend most of my time at the library. Today I realized why it’s not such a bad idea. One of my neighbors gets drunk off his ass everyday. Right now he is drunk and it’s not even the fact that he’s drunk. It’s the fact that he SCREAMS outside my window when he is supposed to be having a private conversation with his mother on the phone. Now, maybe it’s just me, but I...
For a while now a guy keeps on waiting for me on the bus stop. The thing is that he is a “special” guy. I don’t know what to do. I know he doesn’t mean to be creepy or anything, he’s simply trying to be nice and wants new people to talk to. I keep thinking he’s hitting on me, and I don’t know what to do.
I hadn’t seen him the last couple of days. I...
I hate seeing when you get online. To think that at some point it made my stomach do cartwheels. Now it just saddens me and it makes me notice the fact that there is no type of communication between us anymore. It just makes me feel like a part of my life went straight to the trash. I hate having this feeling. I want to skip to the part of my life when all these little things don’t...
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As I was washing dishes today, it dawned on me that what Frida told me the other day was right. She said that since I haven’t had any stable relationship. It has had me thinking for the past week that maybe because of this, maybe my past relationship didn’t work. I mean, it would make sense. I guess I just find it easier to blame myself and try to fix what’s wrong with me, but...
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I saw him for the first time in a while. I was walking to a meeting with my roomates and he and his roomate were walking the opposite direction. I didn’t know what to do so I waved back. I thought I handled it well, but then my roomate looks at me and hugs me. I guess I hadn’t realized I started tearing up. I thought it would be different, I guess not. There are so many things I wish I...
I have a friend who brings up his girlfriend a lot and the thing is that I imagined her to be one of the pretty girls who usually date frat guys. It wasn’t until today that I realized what she looked like. She’s actually not one of those model looking girls. She’s pretty average and to be honest, I realized that once you have known someone for the longest time and once you have...
Woke up this morning and the first thing I saw was a text message from one of my close friend. It said “I’m going to sleep, just know that there is someone that cares about you :)”. It was a very good way to start the morning.
I also had a calculus exam today. I think I did pretty decent, I guess I’ll find out next week.
Time
It is said that time heals all. I’m not sure I completely believe this. My counselor believes I am depressed and she’s given me all these articles that talk about time and how it’s a big part of the healing process. I honestly don’t think time heals everything. While it may be true that sometimes all we need is to take a break and do nothing, sooner or later that pain or...
I got home and slept until 10 pm. Now I can’t fall asleep. Great…
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Passed my driving test! :)
Not even close...
I keep asking myself why I have to think about you every night before I go to sleep. I honestly don’t know. It’s not like I want to.
You posted something about how you think you will be single for a while, but that good women are rare, and that no one has come even close. That actually got to me. I mean if I used to think I wasn’t good enough, this is just proving it right. It...
- Go to school
- Get home
-Eat
- Go to the library
- Spend 3 hours on physics
- Spend 4 hours stuck on a program
-Get home and finish the program in 30 mins
- Can’t sleep :/
Days like these make me feel all warm inside :)
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One of my roommates was telling me about her boyfriend- she thinks he’s boring. The truth is that the guy isn’t boring, he’s just not very social. He likes to keep to himself and he’s just not used to going to parties or going out the whole day. It’s hard for him because she likes to go out, party and just have fun. In other words, she likes variety. She has talked to...
