I hate seeing when you get online. To think that at some point it made my stomach do cartwheels. Now it just saddens me and it makes me notice the fact that there is no type of communication between us anymore. It just makes me feel like a part of my life went straight to the trash. I hate having this feeling. I want to skip to the part of my life when all these little things don’t bother me anymore. I hate having those moments when I start to cry because of what used to be.