I went to a party Saturday night. It was so much fun! For the first time in a long time I enjoyed going out and dancing. The party ended like at 2:30 and then some friends and I went to get some food before we headed to the after party. It was all going fine until one of the girls started talking about the guys that were currently pledging the fraternity. It was no surprise to me when I found out my ex was pledging, of course since all his roomates are pledging and most of his friends crossed last year, he wasn’t going to be the only one who didn’t join. Anyway, I digress, the point is that one of the girls kept saying she liked one of the pledges and wouldn’t say the name. We started guessing names and she still wouldn’t tell us. To my great discomfort, someone mentioned my ex’s name and the girl said no, then turned to me and said, “Isn’t that your ex-boyfriend? Didn’t he treat you like shit? Yeah, I heard, not a lot of people liked him.”
When I heard her say those words, it made me feel bad, but it also helped me put things in perspective. For the longest time, and still today, I used to think that I had done something terribly wrong and that there was something wrong with me. Hearing that from someone who I don’t really talk to and didn’t really know last year made me feel, in a way stupid. I mean, if other people were able to see the way the “relationship” was going except for me, I should have seen it too, but I didn’t. I guess what I’m trying to say is that hearing it that bluntly was a good thing. It helped me realize that maybe he really isn’t wasn’t worth it.
