The week before we got out of class, my roomates and I were drinking. Diana, one of the people I live with reminded me it was one of our friend’s birthday and she proposed we invite him to drink with us. Unfortunately he couldn’t because he had a final to study for. Instead I invited one of my good friend, whom I trust very much.
When he got to my place, it surprised me to see him with his roomate. Not only was I surprised because I hadn’t invited him, but also because he was pledging a fraternity who doesn’t allow pledges to drink. He asked if there was anyone who could tell on him in our house when I said no he went inside and we started to play Jenga and take shots.
For the most part it was a really fun night. I had finished all my work and despite the fact that I had an early morning class, I stayed up really late. I wasn’t the only one who had to do things in the morning, rudy, the pledge, had a train to catch at 4 am. In the end we finished a bottle and a half of tequila and we were all pretty drunk. After a lot of joking around, I decided to call it a day and have at least two hours of sleep before I had to wake up and get ready. I knew my friend was going to stay and sleep in the couch because he was wasted and couldn’t even walk. I assumed the pledge was going to leave to get his things ready, but I assumed wrong. I went to sleep and the next thing I know the pledge went into my room, got on top of me and started kissing me. At some point he tried to get me to give him a blow job. I can still remember his hands all over me and I hate even thinking about it. I was so tired, drunk, and half asleep that I didn’t have the strength to move or say anything, however, I remember pushing him and I know he got mad and left.
The next day I told my roomates, and I found out he had tried something with my other roomate and then he asked where my room was. I honestly didn’t know what to do, they both just stared at me. I couldn’t really talk to them, so I talked to my best friend and he listened and made me feel better. We had dinner and watched a movie. Later I found out he called one of our friend who is actually part of the fraternity and told him what happened with one of his pledges. He only really needed to know the drinking part to do anything. What ended up happening was that he was dropped.
I keep thinking back to that night, so see if somehow I led the pledge on, but the truth is that I didn’t. I actually sat by myself on a chair, apart from everyone. I regret not locking the door to my room, but then again, I never do. It’s where I live and I trust(ed) the people who live with me. I keep telling myself it’s my fault for not being careful and I keep trying to find other ways to know it’s my fault. I guess it’s easier if I do.
My friend, the one I invited to drink, texted me and was asking me what happened. I told him what happened and he was upset. Not only for what happened, but also because the now ex-pledge is his roomate. He thinks the way my friend handled the situation was wrong and that there was really no need to get his big brothers involved or for him to be kicked out of the fraternity. I honestly didn’t think about that, I feel bad because I ruined pledging for him and I know he worked really hard for that. It wasn’t until tonight, when his roomate talked to me that I realized it. I just think that if I would have kept my mouth shut none of this would have happened and I wouldn’t have all these people asking me questions and telling me how mad they are at me.
